A very nice moment to cherish..

Last nite,I had a grand dinner..its humanitarian nite!I dont know why but I really want to be there...maybe it will be my last grand dinner here,in university!everything seems good while we still teenage,young and free rite?!Well, I really hopes that I can see him.."a very nice sweet man"..not my prince charming,but I like to see his sweet face,it makes me smile!
I'm very happy that he gave a positive response when I used to stared at him..kept my eyes on him!I still remember last year's humanitarian nite when my friend and i used to in charge in multimedia crew...I took his pictures, a lot!and I knew that he realized that!and this year, its like a kind of retaliation when he used to do the same things to me and my friend!but so far...it is fun,very fun!I cant stop myself from smiling all the way to my hostel..even when i'm going to sleep...i feel like screaming too...so excited!I know I should take the opportunity that nite to talk to him..but I didnt.Why?because I think it is not necessary.
Anyway,I just want to share my feeling...for this time being,I am not ready with what so-called 'commitment'!I love being single,no particular reason...it's just my way!how long?dont know..maybe until the cupid hit me...oops!

I love this lyric...'takdir' by Melly Goeslaw & Opick

Dihempas gelombang, dilemparkan angin
Sekisah ku bersedih ku bahagia
Di indah dunia yang berakhir sunyi
Langkah kaki di dalam rencana Nya
Semua berjalan dalam kehendak Nya
Nafas hidup cinta dan segalanya
Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Rabbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Rabbi
Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Rabbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Rabbi
Bila mungkin ada luka mencuba tersenyumlah
Bila mungkin tawa mencuba bersabarlah
Kerna air mata tak abadi, akan hilang dan berganti
Bila mungkin hidup hampa dirasa
Mungkinkah hati rindukan Dia
Kerna hanya dengan Nya hati tenang, damai jiwa dan raga

Now...I'm 23 years old!

A very happy new year and a great happy birthday to me!!!well,it's quite late actually..but for me, there is no such term as too late.As i'm counting for a new year, i'm counting for new age!every year we all getting older than the last year.As we are getting into 2008,i'm getting into 23 years old...it sounds old,but only1 year older that last year!Now, i'm old enough see things clearly. Talking about year 2007, there were not much changes..back then I was 22 years old. Of course, that year stored so many memories to be mesmerize...those either full of sweetness or bitterness, it doesnt bother me at all now...coz one thing for sure, those were passed! So much lessons and experiences that i've got in my 22 years lod of life and i'll always remember 2007 as well as the previous years. Those years contributes a lot for who I am today.
There is one thing that left something tugged in my heart and my mind...left deep impact in my life!But it's personal..myself and I,between me and my inner self. Only He knows how hard i've tried to deal with it. I'm so thankful that no matter what i've lost, i'm certain that I still posseses something with me!No one can take that thing away from me...it's my faith!And that is how I succeed in dealing with all of my dissapoinments,failures and frustration. Faith...it is something that I used to cling to!

It is just something that felt...

Last few days,my emotion seems unpredictable,Ive experienced some kind of emotional fluctuation...sometimes I fell good,sometimes everything like seems so wrong!I decided to go for blood donation in the evening,it is a part of my small contribution since I cant contribute much.

Well, on the way back..I felt something,a feeling of relieve,peace and silence!these feelings toyed with my heart...gave me heartache!they touch my heart slowly till I managed to open my mind,thinking about all that I've beeb going through within these recent years.All of sudden..my tears just cant stop from falling down...I took a look around realizing that I will leave this place(my university) one day...that day will be too soon.

I've learned almost everything here...about friendship,about rivals,about love,about hatred,about peace,about tension,about past,about future,about dreams,about reality and more.And now,I'm counting the days that I'll be here...sooner everything will fades.At that time, what I have to do is to begin a new life..a brand new life on my own.I've learned to relish life's challenges,not to avoid them as I used to do sometimes.It is time to let my hope to pull me through,move forward with a brave heart...I've to live in present by reminiscing the past.

If I fall in pursuing my journey,I'll just get up..stand up right and continue untill my feet weak,untill my energy deplete..and if I fell like giving up,I will surrender everything to the highest power(Him).I believe...at the end,all that I get is an exceptional and fulfilling life...coz I know that my conscience is very clear..!!!

A new me...'maybe'

I dont really know about this 'blog' or 'blogging' things.Well, I do hv some idea bout it...blog is a kind of web log that people used to post their ideas,experiences, feelings,thoughts,or anything...whether to be shared or not.But occasionally,we post something on the web to be share with others rite!So,I think...that is why I've created one!

I do hv one,but it is fun/better to hv two....Im variety!I chose to name my blog with a simple sentence that is very meaningful to me...'life of perseverance and heart of sincerity'!that reflects me or at least that is what I aim to or try to be..I want to be a new me in the positive aspects,and juz be me in some aspects...

I hope that I can share or express my feeling,my thoughts,my ideas,my experiences via this blog!Hopefully,this year will promise me a brand new life...better life...full of sincerity,full of perseverance,full of hopes that will lead me to success!