All this while, I’ve gone through so many things, be it good or bad. Honestly, it takes me courage to become the kind of person I’d like to be. It takes heart to act bravely…that empowered me to move ahead. I’m never giving up in asking for His bless and guidance, to give courage to listen to my inner voice. Yet, I cannot deny that too often that I stumbled on my way. There was a space in my heart, which my fear used to stay…I don’t know why did I kept that fear in my heart and allowed it to crippling my spirit. The higher the fear is, the greater this life will challenge me…
Interestingly, somehow, sometimes…I realized that today I can stand up tall bravely, saying that I had learned how not to be afraid. I’m not…afraid of this life for any upcoming, be it good or bad!
Now, everything has come to the end...and there is nothing much painful than leaving something that you wanna have till the end. I had just finished my study...but I dont see any reason why do I have to be happy with that.I've to leave my room,my hostel,my classes,my university and my friends that I used clinged to for years. It seems awkward when you wakeup and found out that you are in the different circumstances...that's how I felt.I'm never wonder the degree of impact of this separation on me, it's great...till the extent that it managed to break my heart!I've never been as weak as this...my feet dont seem stepped on on the ground,my knees was not supported that I might stumble at any time.Gosh!I really loves my friends,even I didn't show it...but I really do.But things have to move on,so do I...!The samegoes with this friendship...I'll miss you all girls!
I choose to live in present for my future, not trying to eradicate the past. I’m always aware of the past, my past…I can still remember how I got badly hurt because of my own failure, because of my weaknesses, because of things and people that I’ve lost or left me. I’ll not let any fear to bother me because one thing for sure, He’ll be by my side at all times.
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